So funny story: I wasn't able to post last week because I got grounded from all my electronics. I was, well, a brat. I'd had a bad day. Most of my teachers at school were in bad moods, and one of my friends was really getting on my nerves by being super immature and inconsiderate of other peoples feelings, including my own. She seemed to be trying everything she could to push my buttons. Then after my long day at school I went to softball practice. I played horrible, and of course I was really hard on myself because even my coaches mentioned how awful I was at practice that day. Track was even worse. I nearly had an asthma attack after timing a mile. Then I had to time a half mile and a 600 meter run. It was utterly awful. My lungs physically hurt after I finally got done. After that I had a softball team dinner which was actually fun. Then I went to the nursing home and saw the decline of my favorite old lady. She was not doing well, and it tore me apart.
During this whole time, my parents had apparently been trying to text me and get ahold of me. But of course, my phone was on silent because I was at school or practice. They wanted to remind me to go to the nursing home at 6. They had text me during school and called me during practice, but I didn't see their messages and know to call back until after the softball dinner. They were mad about my lack of communication during the day. I normally do check my phone and reply to them. It was just unusual behavior for me from their point of view. They didn't know that I'd had a bad day, and that I was already preoccupied by thoughts of grief for my dying friend. So they got mad. We got into it and I was really rude. I talked to them harshly and I took my bad day out on them. It wasn't good. I was so consumed by emotion that I got pretty angry and I never get angry. Because of my actions, I was grounded.
But I learned something from being grounded. One, I am not very addicted to my electronics. Though, I did miss my phone a little because there were a few times when I was home and had nothing to do and it would have been nice to text a friend, I didn't miss it often. My computer was really not on my mind besides last Wednesday when I realized I hadn't posted on my blog. Two, spending so much time without my phone, computer and other electrical devices was really nice, peaceful. I think that we teens sometimes get so caught up in the technology that our generation sometimes forgets what a night spent playing games with the family or just talking to someone in person does for us. I think that technology is a great thing. I love it, but I also think that sometimes it gets in the way of us taking a step back from the world and truly, truly enjoying the present for what it is. Not worrying about Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, etc., allows us to relax in a way that we don't get to experience with all that on our minds. And lastly, I realized how much more I value actual human contact. I am an introvert. So though, I am not addicted to my phone, I will use it to get out of having to talk to people sometimes. I don't like having to talk to people all the time because it is exhausting for me. You all wear me out (haha that was a funny...please laugh). So I did miss not talking to people a little, but because I couldn't use my phone, I had to have conversations with people. Yes, it was tiring, but it was really nice. People are amazing. I am astonished everyday by the kids at my school. We truly are all unique in different ways, and we all hide so much behind our masks whether it is pain, grief, joy, or anything really. People are so complex and dynamic and that is something you really miss out on when you hide behind a screen all the time. I have always thought this, but the last week has really brought it to my attention.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is that technology is great and I think that we should use it. We should totally connect over the internet, and social media is huge in our generation. There is nothing wrong with that. That's something amazing about us: Technology is apart of our everyday lives and no matter what other generations tell us, that is spectacular. BUT> that doesn't mean that we shouldn't take a step back from the electronics every once in a while. Forget about our phones for just a couple of hours, leave our computers in our bedrooms and go explore this amazing world that we live in. I think that is just as important for us, if not a little more. We all need a little break every once in a while. Besides we live in a pretty spectacular place.
"Anyone can show up when you're happy. But the ones who stay by your side when your heart falls apart, they are your true friends."
I am Samantha, and my goal for this blog is to basically share my experiences as a teenager. Basically, I am a teen. I have many hopes and dreams, many fears and insecurities that I let hold me back. There is so much that goes on in my life. Sometimes it is a struggle, and that is what this blog is about.