It's 9:30 when I look at the clock after my shower and homework. Work was annoyingly rough tonight. I crawl out of my cozy bed, leaving my finished math homework and book thrown about. I'll get it later. As I walk through the living room, I tell my parents that I'm going to go sit outside for a bit. They give me a funny look, but nod their heads anyways. A habit of mine. They don't fully understand. Once in my yard, I sit on the ground, tucking my knees up under my chin and wrapping my arms securely around my legs. I stare off into the distance for a long time. My ever so constant thoughts overrun my brain.
I wonder if he will text me tonight. He won't. Softball was hard today. I can't believe she said that to the teacher. Is she just praying for a detention? Today was awful. I just want a good day tomorrow, Lord. Please?
I get tired of thinking and try to block it all out. It doesn't work. I lay on my back and gaze and the beautiful diamonds up in the black void of a sky. This is my favorite time of day. An overwhelming peace consumes my entire existence. I feel God's gentle hands on my soul. The stars are my favorite. They are so amazing. They...words can't even explain them. They are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen before. I sigh and soak in the wonderful sight until Mom calls me in. It's 11:00. I have school tomorrow. She says I need sleep. With one last glance, I walk into the house.
This is something I do at least once a week. It rejuvenates my soul. I don't know. Just something about star gazing fills my heart with a calming since of peace. The stars are the perfect picture of beauty in my eyes. They are little diamonds hanging in the black, expansive sky. The stars remind me how big the world is and how I am only a small part of it. I am only a miniscule piece of the puzzle. This may not seem like a feeling that would help in a situation where you feel overwhelmed by life, but it helps me so much. Looking at the huge sky, with its pure beauty, shows me that my problems are not that big. The stars also remind me of God. He holds the whole world in His hands. He will hold me too. It's not just the about the stars though. It is more about finding a little peace in this crazy world. As teenagers, we live in a whirlpool of chaos, and every once in a while, we need to find something that will give us a little tranquility. So, find something you love and do that often.
"Anyone can show up when you're happy. But the ones who stay by your side when your heart falls apart, they are your true friends."
I am Samantha, and my goal for this blog is to basically share my experiences as a teenager. Basically, I am a teen. I have many hopes and dreams, many fears and insecurities that I let hold me back. There is so much that goes on in my life. Sometimes it is a struggle, and that is what this blog is about.