Life had been kind of difficult lately.
I've had a new friend work his way into my trust and then just walk out with no explanations. He totally ignores me and won't even look at me. It hurts a little. I mean I thought we could eventually be really good friends. I guess I was wrong.
I've had an old friend finally show her true colors, or maybe I'm just really looking for the first time. I don't know. We were close, but I don't think I can really trust her now. This hurts so much more than I ever imagined. It makes me think I might be drowning.
I'm slowly growing into a new person, changing with the things that come into my life. Maturing in the way I dress, act, the things I think about. A few people are looking down on me because of this. It makes it hard, because those are the few people I thought I could count on to encourage me.
It kind of feels like everyone is against me. Obviously I know that isn't true. I do have this one friend who is totally walking through this cluttered, dark alley with me and then there's my family and even a couple other friends, but I'm still stumbling. I'm finding that it's hard to turn to God right now because one of my biggest fears is losing people. And here I am with a ton of people I care about just walking away. I keep asking God how this could be happening. Why would He let it happen? Why would He make me go through losing my close friendships? I don't understand. I guess I'm not supposed to. I keep praying that something amazing will come out of this because I know that's what God does. He scares away the darkness with the light to reveal the gorgeous flowers below. But right now I don't really have anyone to lean on and it kind of scares me. I'm trying so hard to hold on to God, but it feels like He is a helium balloon that just keeps rising into the sky and is slowly slipping out of my hands. And that's the scariest thing of all.
I guess what I'm trying to get at by telling you all this is that in the world we will face troubles like it says in John 16:33. Being a Christian isn't easy, but we can't just give up. We have to keep going and we do this by putting our hope in Jesus, in God, in the Holy Spirit. We hope in them because Jesus has been on this earth and faced troubles very much like ours. We remember this and we keep going. At least that's what I'm doing and I hope that's what you'll do too when you find yourself in a situation where life gets rough.
About the Author:
I am Bridges or at least on here I am. Basically, I am a teen. I have many hopes and dreams, many fears and insecurities that I let hold me back. There is so much that goes on in my life. Sometimes it is a struggle, and that what this site is about.
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